my Confession

last week i confessed to him.
unfortunate he didnt give a damn.
it makes me very frustrated , so just a dumb of it.
but somehow deep down its disturbing me badly.
i want him to love me.
but unfortunately for me i have choosen the wrong guy.
but this is life if you dont grow through it how are you ever gonna grow up.
like somebody say once to me you get to overcome something gain some.
and also you gotta forget the past and move on.
i promised that somebody thet i will do so,
even its agaisnt my will.
my mother say if that person doesn't love you back he is an idiot
and he is not WORTHY enough for you.
but, sometimes i wonder whether im WORTHY enough for him?
he is the second man in life i give him evrything ,
my first time and my kiss .
everything i give him.
i regret it but im just glad is him.
because somehow i know he respected it.
well thats what throughly happen in my life for the last semester .
they got a lot more but i feel i need to write this so that i wont feel miserable.

Love till death do them apart.

Her name is alysha..
She is a fifteen years old girl who like try new thing into her life and she intended to dontng that she never done before..not like other girls in her class Alysha like to spend her time playing with laptop and stay out late at night..she was a girl of her own world..while other girl try to search for boyfriend she is busy sleeping .... She has one think about having a boyfriend..
On midterms her test marks are so low...many of her subject fail and she didn't give a damn..but her mother was furious so the mother take action and send Alysha to tuition...
She went to the tuition and there is where alysha a friend name J( on real name)...J is guy older than her..J was the first guy that ever be so kind to her and the first guy that ever make  her blush easily..but still that is all J to her not more but J have feeling for her...

So start J plan to get Alysha heart..He try everything but all failed cause alysha never notice about his feeling towards her..Because as it is said she got no interest towards any guys..
Then one day J get the courage to ask Alysha to go out to the movies with him..she said without hesitation so they when out ... alysha was wearing such a normal clothes tshirt and jeans while J use such a fancy cloths to impress Alysha..
He was shock to see how Alysha wear but he just smile look really beautiful...Alysha blush and she enjoy the date ver much that time....until about 11 pm..
He send me home by using his motorcycle ....when she got down from the motorcycle he also got down ,so Alysha ask with curiosity,What do you want? 
Then J say ' I just wanted to send my date to her door that's all , cannot is it?
Alysha smile and say of course you can , blushing.
Then he smile and took the chance to hold her hand..she got shock butane just play dumb...
then come to the doorstep J kneel down like he is going to propose something making Alysha nervous. He ask something that make Alysha blush damn bright red..' Would you go out with me?' said J to Alysha...Alysha blush and said yes shyly..he hug her,then kiss her cheek before saying goodbye..Alysha blush and say goodbye back..
He went back happily..

They couple for straight 1 1/2 year ,happily living their little world there..
But suddenly J gone! That make Alysha gone worried and crazy a little bit ...she cried when he didn't call her at all for one week..then after two week suddenly she got a call from J mother saying that J is in the hospital for two weeks already.. She drop to the floor and feel like her soul just left her soul,she tremble and set off to the hospital as fast as she could possible..when she reach there he was watching the television , when he saw her he got shock and ask ' what are you doing here? With a tone that make her irritate. 

But all in all she was happy that he was okay.. She just smile and then scolded back.. After awhile they sit down at the hospital cafe together and talk calmly.. She was smiling brightly to see him but he was so sad and got something in his mouth..then he tell her something that she could take it ,she assume that it was a joke... Then J insist that it's real.. She started crying and come and hug her.. For three days straight she stay at the hospital with him.. Then after that J's mother ask her to go home and take rest ..but she insisted that she stayed  here to take care of him until he said to her that she have to rest and he promise he won't disappeared..

So she took his words for that and when back...she rest for a while but she cannot her heart cannot stand and at 4 am she went to the hospital and his mother said that J is in a critical time right now and the doctor trying to save him...
J's mother start crying and Alysha hug her and ask her to pray for his safety..
She ask the mother to rest and pray for his son... Then the doctor come out smiling and said that he was okay.. It make everybody happy that time and The mother was the happiest one that time..Alysha was speechless and thank the god for that..

She stayed the until next morning and J's ask to talk to her alone with the mother ..the mother smile and go out..
Alysha sit beside him and hold is hand .. J's says that he might not live long enough..and I wanted to fight back and ask me to shut up and hear what he wanted to say..
They he sta talking...he said I want u to be happy, I want u to go and find a good guy that can give you a good and happy life..I want you to forget about me and I want you to never visit my grave...the he ask her to promise..but she just cry and said noo!! She cried but he forced her to promise and she promise... After that he ask her to called her mom and ask me to go home and take a rat.. She do as he say.. 
 
Next morning he died because..
Of leukemia.. The girl cried in sleep  when he was about to pass away... How? Don't know? Coincidence ,guess?true story it really happen..

Dun complain about my mistake in dis story..I'm just sharing it..

everthing that has happen and going to happen

hi ! tonight ill be doing my nails and thurga also ..here are the photo take we take to show our nails <3   

 see we do our nails

thurga did orange

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i did red colour

this one is just us wanna take picture ..buewkk

look at thurga hand she is trying to take over the world.

i got my result today..is quite bad...so sad i aiming for scholarship and and i dont get...so sad..here dis are my result for this first sem at Nilai College:

A-

A-

B+

B+

B-

=

CGPA3.4

Okay then last month on Raya Holiday, my family and i when to Langkawi. We to three island which i dun recall what they are call..sorry..here are some photo when we are there ~

~ The Three Stooges~

 ~we and wood people~

 ~Long Lost Brother~

 ~peace~

 ~his biggest smile + fries~

 ~look his cheek becoming like bulldog=]~

 ~rock mama~

 ~RAHIM~

 ~stinky Armpit~

 ~totaly ruined my hair that day~

 ~ya! old mafia~

 ~sea walking~

 ~searching for shell,but dun even find one (sad)~

 ~rITUAl~

 ~sibling picture~

 ~she finally took the bloody photo~

 ~new version of Knight and Day~

 ~eagles in action~

 ~half guy & half lady~

 ~walking down after jumping into 30 feet of sea water level~

~AWESOME!!!!!!~

~Lastly FAmily Picture~

i think thats all for now..i think thats week ill put my ipad picture and make spaghetti bolognese...

bubye!! =)

back to nilai ady =]

im back to nilai..
i had forgotten all about him..i successfully make 420$ in two weeks working..
And i swear icannot wait anymore my parent giving me an ipad fasterlh that day come so i can be more happy..
in last two weeks i think i gain more weight, i should lose weight but mom's cooking cannot be defeated!!
like i say when introduce my self i love coke!!
just wanna share the picture + words that i find =]

okay next i swear i love baggy clothes.u can ask my friend if u dun believe it ..my bestie know it..here are some ridiculous reason for it XD

thats all i guess for today =] ...

what do i think of?

-ridiculous?

-love?

-hatred?

-jealousy?

-relationship

-friends?

-life?